FB chat

This is probably one of the best days of my life since I became permanent in our company.

Well, unexpectedly, an FB chat conversation started between Emily and I last night. It just stemmed from a controversial question she asked through FB message.

Suddenly, our stories went from simple to something else. I had a lot of "kilig" moments on the whole duration of our conversation cos it was something I never expected to happen. I felt like she was ready to open herself to me; like she wanted to share a lot of things about her and she wanted me to do the same.

Tomorrow is our scheduled practice for the company anniversary. I am really hoping to see her there and (fingers crossed) talk to her even for just a short time. That will certainly make my day.

Oh Emily... Can I just be your Maya?

=)

Turn of events

My life has never been this exciting. For the past days, my existence has been a little colorful because of the new people I have met.

There's Emily. I met her through our new hires practices for the company anniversary. It was kind of weird how I got to start a conversation with her. It began with mere teasing and it seemed like we already knew a lot about each other.

It is really cool that I got to call her Emily, even though this is not her real name. I just named her after my favorite Pretty Little Liar (PLL) character. In return, she addresses me as PLL.

I only see her once or twice a week (thanks to our practices) and I really look forward to the day I'm going to throw jokes in front of her again. I love seeing her smile.

After Emily, there's no one else. I'm really thankful that I already have my ?own? version of Emily.

Dilemma

These past days, I've been having a lot of things bothering me; mostly relationship wise. I've been wanting to tell the person I like about my feelings but I'm still afraid. Maybe because I can see that she is not still ready; that she is still searching for herself. I know and I've learned that she does not want any commitments for now.

Some of my friends have also been assessing her personality. I, personally, like her a lot as a person because she is honest and mature, some of the few traits I really like in a person. But nobody is really perfect. She has her own flaws but I think her imperfections make her perfect in my eyes.

But still nothing is sure. If I will be asked, I really love to be around her. I learn a lot from our conversations and she gives me the jitters.

I don't know wherever this is going but for now I just want to know her better and to spend more quality time with her. I hope she gives me the chance to do these things. Fingers crossed.

Liking someone

I almost forgot the feeling of liking someone. It's been a long time since I liked someone this much. And now the intense feeling has plagued me again. And its threatening my normal existence, my solo life.

Maybe the feeling blossomed long before I even realized it. It just hit me one day and now I can't seem to get her off my mind. I don't know if this will do me anything good, all this anxiety and anticipation. But deep inside, she keeps me smiling; like no one has ever done before.

And worst, in everything I do, there is always a flash of that moment when we spent time together. It keeps repeating in my mind, like a memory of a wonderful movie that I would like to watch over and over again. Yes, I'm officially hooked to her.

I still do not know where this is headin. But deep inside I'm hoping it will turn out well. I want to tell my friends about her, even my family. I want to bring her to our province. I want to create great memories with her.

I know and I admit that I am overthinking things but this is me when I really want someone. I picture them inside my life. Who knows, all these wishes and dreams might just happen, SOMEDAY, ONE DAY.

Weaving the Future

Procastination ruled over productivity during my consecutive days off. I spent two whole days in front of my laptop and the irony is I was not even able to update any of my blogs, not even this one.

But the most exciting thing that happened during those lazy days was the culmination of the fashion design competition of one of our housemates. We went full-force to Pagcor Grand Theater in Parañaque to witness the awarding ceremony of FDCP's Weaving the Future.

It was a chic and classy event. We did our best to belong =) It has been a long time since I last watched a fashion show like that. The creations of all the young designers were way beyond our expectations. They proved that they were truly talented budding designers.

Even though, Ghen did not bring home the win, still we enjoyed the show and we knew he did his best to showcase his unique creations and he is inspired to do better in his next competitions.


We all went home starving but we still had smiles on our faces. It was an event we will treasure and remember =)

Editorial Volleyball Team

I had to force myself to wake up at 9 a.m. because of the Inquirer volleyball game this morning. My eyes were still so tired from yesterday's whole-day activity.

I was a bit excited for the game because it was my first time again to play after 5 or 6 years. I didn't even know if I still have the energy to play volleyball. I almost forgot how to play the game.

It was the editorial department versus the rest of the Inquirer =) I did not quite get how they assigned the teams because we were obviously outnumbered. We only had 9 players on our team while the opposite had about fifteen and the worst thing was, two of our team mates failed to come to the scheduled game. So it was a game where almost no one of us in the team can rest in-between sets. I knew we were up for an exhausting one.

We endured a 5-set match but did not emerge as winners. The yellow team outpowered us with their amazing aces. But our team did not feel bad at all. We enjoyed every minute of the game and we did not even consider it as a competition. We just had fun. That was the part I truly appreciated. The essence of camaraderie and genuine fun.

Some of us went home bruised but despite that and the loss, we were still smiling and remembering every defining moment (more of laughing moments).

We fought hard and it was a great game. I hope there will still be next time =)

Write-Along

I wasn't able to visit this blog for two days because I got caught up yesterday in the Inquirer write-along at Bulacan State University.

My day started around 5:30 a.m. It was amazing how I pulled myself from bed that early considering the fact that I went to sleep at 1 a.m.

An hour trip to Malolos made me feel dizzy and I was not able to sleep. I had my earphones stuck in my ears but the music did not help at all. I was hungry and sleepy at the same time. My body was not at its usual state.

We arrived just in time at the university. I was with the chief correspondent of Inquirer Southern Luzon, Maricar Cinco, and Inquirer Research head Miner Generalao.

A campus that reminded me of my beloved Bicol University greeted me as we entered BSU. The architecture of the buildings was almost the same with my alma mater's. Students traversing the covered courts, cliques throwing jokes while eating and individuals lining up a store to have books photocopied brought me back to my college years. I missed those kinds of scenes and at at that moment, I wanted to go back to where I was three years ago.

The Inquirer write-along was successful because of the doubled efforts of the Central anf northern Luzon bureaus. Participants from Bataan, Pampanga and Bulacan were in attendance. Seasoned journalists shared their expertise in various areas. The students also proved that they were future journalists because of their participation in the activities.

It was a great experience for me to finally meet the correspondents of the two bureaus. They were truly hardworking and talented individuals. They inspire me to improve my skills everyday and to work harder for my dreams.

The only bad thing about my day was the almost unending traffic near SM North Edsa. It absorbed the remaining energy in my body. We arrived at around 9 p.m. at the office. I hastily grabbed my jersey for the volleyball game the next day and rushed home.

After enjoying a quick dinner at Jolibbe with my housemates, I had the best sleep of my life. It was in preparation for another long and tiring day.

Futuristic

The theme for our coming Christmas party/company anniversary is futuristic. Earlier, new hires (me included) had a short meeting on our presentation concept.

There was a sigh of excitement in me upon meeting my coemployees from other departments. Aside from the donuts and softdrinks served by Sir Jogi, I enjoyed knowing each of them.

We were able to plan our moment for the party but it's not for me to reveal or maybe it is to early to tell. Plans have not yet been actualized. We are still polishing our action plan.

I know this will be another exciting event for me, not only because of our number but because I get to know and meet new people.

Jitters

Office crush is in the house. Wednesday is the only day in the week where she comes in cos she is usually doing field work among other things =)

She is just so beautiful and its like she doesn't need to do anything to be beautiful. And she doesn't even know it.

"You don't know you're beautiful, that's what makes you beautiful." - One Direction

I love my Wednesdays because of her. I feel really inspired when I'm around her. But sad thing is, this is just it. I will keep on loving her from a distance.

But I have always believed that good things come to those who wait. hahaha... Anyway, I've got a bulk of work that needs to be finished, I better get back to it or I won't be seeing office crush again =) butterflies...

Run GMA run

It was chaos at the office hours earlier. Chaos caused by the drama at the Naia terminal involving former President GMA who was scheduled to leave for Singapore tonight. This afternoon Justice Secretary Leila de Lima ordered the travel ban of the Arroyos despite the SC ruling that they can leave the country for the medication of the former leader.

The whole country was torn on who to believe and who to follow. Clearly, majority of the people did not understand the circumstances behind the situation.

But the plan to escape (or whatever that is) of the Arroyos was of course stopped by De Lima herself and Malacanang. GMA was brought back to St. Luke's from Naia.

I'll be expecting tomorrow is a buy day for filing cases or perhaps for another attempt to leave the country. What the outcome might be is still a big puzzle for all of us. We are all perplexed just as much as the leaders of this country are.

Nikita

The TV series Nikita is definitely my addiction nowadays. Maggie Q is like cocaine that got me hooked on my laptop screen every midnight till early morning. I just can't get enough of her (include A Walk to Remember's Shane West and Final Destination's Devon Sawa). The show is just star-studded.

I've finished its first season and I'm trying to keep up with the latest season which runs on CWTV Fridays. Nikita is also the reason why I've been having action-packed dreams for the past week. Although, I wake up feeling all tired and consumed, I love the sense of empowerment it gives me. More dose of Nikita will definitely keep me on a high.

Surround sound

Today I got myself new earphones. Grabbed it from the nearest tech fair in Makati (Park Square). I was surprised it costs less than I thought especially with its brand. I wasted no time to try it. The sound was like thunder to my ears. It's like when I listen to my playlist, I revolve around my own world with all pseudo things happening around me. It's like I'm inside a cave full of emotions, my own of course.

On my way home, I listened to but one song: Life for Rent by Dido. Finally, I found the perfect song to describe my existence. I can relate to every word of the song and it made me feel better about my life right now.

Life for Rent- Dido

I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive

If my life is for rent...

Controversial Pac win

Today marked the day when well-respected Filipino hero Manny Pacquiao went a notch lower from his ladder of fame as the number one pound-for-pound champion of the world after his almost loss to Mexican fighter Juan Manuel Maquez.

From a layman's point of view, Marquez threw more powerful punches than Pacman. But to the trained eye, perhaps Manny won by a hairline. It was one of his toughest fight. Marquez proved to be one hell of an opponent. He had the accuracy Manny failed to show and on top of it, he almost equaled Manny's speed.

From boxeomundial.net

The results still favored Pacman giving him a majority win. I'm still so proud of you Manny despite this tough day. As Howie Day's song Collide says, "Even the best fall down sometimes."

I hope this will be a learning ground for Pacman. Basagin mo ang mga ulo ng mga masusunod mong kalaban. To hell with respect Manny... hahahaha =)

Predyeder

Today, I bought a refrigerator for our Bicol home. Well, actually, I haven't paid for it fully. I planned to buy it through an easy installment plan so that it would not be too much for me. I'm happy they got excited because of the new addition in our small house. It was time to say goodbye to the old one which I got to open and close when I was still in grade school. Kailangan naman namin ng upgrade sa buhay. When my mom saw the refrigerator, she texted me instantly. "Cuteon man." It made my day =)

Drinking Spree

It was another lazy day for me yesterday. I did not feel like going anywhere but I had to force myself to get out of bed because I had loads of things to buy. But given the whole day to spot and buy stuff, I ended up buying a pair of shoes worth 220 bucks. I felt amazing being able to get good quality sneakers for that price. Last night was the culmination of the 11/11/11 thing for us. My housemates and I went out for a drinking spree. We tried mixing margarita, wengweng and draft beer inside our thirsty stomachs. My intestines felt bloated after the 2-hour session. My mouth was about to explode but a 5-peso ice pop saved my butt last night. It was a lazy but crazy day for me.

11-11-11

The clock struck 12 and the date is officially 11-11-11. People from all around the globe made a big fuss about it. Like a big asteroid will hit Earth or something gruesome and bloody will happen today. Well, for me, I find nothing significant on this day. It's still the same old Friday where I spend the whole day trying to figure out what to do because I don't have work. Since the day officially started an hour ago, I'll just keep my fingers crossed and hope that the number series would attract positive energy into my ordinary day. And I hope it does too, to everyone else. Happy Superstition Day everyone. Let's be our best today. It might be the end of the world =)

KutchiPu

Our daily dose of KutchiPu has arrived. It's actually puto but since it also tastes like kutsinta, we call it KutchiPu. KutchiPu is a small variety of puto but the taste is way ahead its size. I need to start asking where they order these bilaos of kutchipus =)

Money can't buy us happiness

Today, I received my first company bonus. Yes, it felt great. Plans on where to spend the money were already formed in my mind weeks before I ever get hold of it. This is one sweet day for me. But it felt weird that after I knew how much I was getting, I felt like I did not want to spend the money. I just wanted to keep it. But no, I've planned on buying a DSLR long time ago and this time I'm buying it with the money I've earned with my own sweat. I still need to wait for a couple of weeks before I can get that camera but I know it would be worth spending. And finally I can buy my mom the new refrigerator she has been asking me for months. There, mama is happy too.

But receiving the bonus really did not give me so much happiness cos I knew I would just spend it in a few days or weeks. It would slip right out of my hands when the need arises. It will just be a memory of a past. It can't really buy me happiness for a long time. Just a short and passing one. Well, I think I need to enjoy this short and passing time before it expires =)